Saturday, February 17, 2007
its the eve of the chinese new year and some how, im just thinking that maybe cny is not as fun anymore.. i really dont like spring cleaning.. first time i think i would rather study. haha. thats very wierd since i really cant stand it this year especially.
keep thinking of wanting to stop sch, to get out of sch..
i was like telling my father," if you get a bonus, can i stop school?"
sigh. dont know what made me so jaded this year..
and after i failed my bio and chem class test, thought that it would like wake me up. but obviously it didnt work. now i feel like i dont even care if i do well anot for common tests. sigh. that had better changed by then though.
anyway, sara just left for Aust on Tues.. it was a teary goodbye for all, but really, she IS coming back yar? So i think we should smile and await for her arrival then.. =)
just wondering what it would be like if i had to leave for somewhere far for a long time.. would ppl actually miss me or even rem me.. haha. all along i always thought that i had quite a high self esteem, relatively at least. but sometimes, it just seems that i keep thinking of myself as not as good as the rest or always the odd one out..
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2:28 PM
i scribble (: