Friday, March 02, 2007
its been a sad week. =( something so sudden so saddening so humbling that makes you reflect what on earth are you here for.
hai.
i dont wanna leave in the midst of studying
i dont want to leave so early.
i havent enjoyed enough.
haven eaten enough. haven shopped enough.
on a heavier note, i haven read the bible properly.
i have not saved a person yet
i have not spread the love of God enough.
i m just basically not ready to go..
but i know the time is coming when God will return gloriously.
so i pray with all my strength and might that God will plant in me the desire to serve him better and make him a part of every step of my life..
help me to rem that im not of this world, im only a passer-by
pretty please.
and everytime i think of what am i living for, i know that im supp to be living for God. but some how, that ans is not coming to me.
ive been feeling so so sick of everything. wondering what im doing with my life, studying things that will nv be used and be forgotten forever. seriously. i still think that studying all this and stressing myself up for all this worthless matter is not worth it at all. but somethings you just cant help. like how i cant help worrying. sometimes, i even used to wrry that im wasnt worried enough.
haha. thank God but that has since improved since i learnt to cast my burdens onto him because he cares for me. 1 peter 5;7
so Lord, help me to learn to live for you alone, and every step that i take, every moment im awake, Lord have YOUR way in me..
memories of her still pop out randomly. and i hope i can live a better life and be more appreciative of things around me, if not for her sake, for my sake.
carpe diam.
on a ligher note. a level results out today. vjc did pretty well i guess. went to see the seniors get back their results. since they delayed the whole thing for so long, took the time to see the many weird and unique ways ppl dress. haha. like a fashion parade. it really makes one think why ppl go to such a great extent to make up and dress up just to collect their results for like less than 1 hour. hmm.
wing and i were discussing on what to wear next year. and we came up with the BRILLIANT idea of wearing our sch u! =) so special and so easily spotted. haha. anyway, for the first time, the principal actually kept his speech short sharp and sweet. lol. so it was a matter of minutes before the official address was over and when it was time for the distribution of results.
saw this girl who was walking out of the hall. when she spotted her mum, she ran to her and squealed," mummy, i got FOUR As!!" mum squeals back in delight. haha. ok not really but you get the point.
i want to be the girl next year. =)
how bout, "Mummy, i need to go stage and take results!" LOL. im such a dreamer. nv in my life have i gone up the stage to receive anything. but once again. MIRACLES happen. haha. =) not tht i expect any to happen. just a reallyrandom thought lah.
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11:15 PM
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